13 years.

That's how long I have been captured and enveloped by the world of Harry Potter. That's how long I've been reading the books over and over again, watching the movies whenever I needed to escape from the stress of real life, discussing, thinking about, and sharing a world whose traits and philosophies have completely changed my life. And now it's all ending.

I feel like this post is 100% necessary. I MUST write down in words how I'm feeling at this time. Because it's a sad, immobilizing feeling and a sad, distressing time. I know that the final film will wrench my heart out and I'm pretty positive it will be my favorite film of all of them, because it was my favorite part of the books. But I don't want it to come. Nope. Not yet. There is no other feeling in the world like the anticipation for the next Harry Potter trailer, book, or movie.

But at the same time, I want the world to see it so badly. I feel like the whole purpose of Harry Potter will become clear to the general public and non-fans by means of this last film. There is a meaning so deep and statement-making that has yet to be revealed to those who don't know how it ends, and perhaps now Harry Potter will get the TRUE respect it deserves. Not to say it's been disrespected, but I feel like the world still doesn't truly get it. Not like we do.

I think that after the film is over, I'll be in a state of shock, but it's not like I'm losing anything. These books and films will still be a part of my near-everyday life for the rest of my life. Yes, I will miss the midnight premieres. They are so special and so moving because you know that it's a once-in-a-lifetime kind of thing and something we will all be telling our kids and grandkids about. Being in a huge room full of people that share this same love that you do; a pure love and understanding for something like the love of the Harry Potter fandom is so rare to find. Even when I go to concerts, for example, everyone there usually ranges from pretty excited to mildly interested, with the exception of about 10% hardcore fans. Not the case with Harry Potter. EVERYONE has the same love, passion, and understanding of why they are there. We're all on the same wavelength and you can make friends with people you wouldn't have ever thought. Because, personally, I feel like if you "get" Harry Potter the same way I do, we probably have a LOT more in common than just that. I will miss the midnight premieres more than anything.

Mostly I'm just so, so grateful to have lived through this. I've grown up with the actors, so thus I've grown up with the characters on-screen. And it's been a fantastic way to grow up. Each film has felt appropriate for the time that it appeared in my life. This last one the most so.

i'll take you everywhere i go

This required its own post because I'm so proud of it ♥



Watch in HD here.

I just love this hobby of mine. It's creative, it's relaxing, and it's Harry Potter. Love!

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows, Part 1

I think the time has come for my Deathly Hallows review.

I took pictures even though there wasn't too much to take pictures of. Just lots of people waiting around in cute costumes :)







Here was my outfit :)



That tie is now hanging on my cork board in my bedroom. Makes it feel like I'm in a Gryffindor dorm wooh!

So anyway. Our showing was at 1:20 AM. And my overall thoughts: I really can't sum it up in one sentence. I have to see it again to make an accurate judgement. BUT I can make this comparison, overall: Lord of the Rings and the Two Towers. Now, The Two Towers is everyone's least favorite LOTR movie, and that's not what I'm saying at all. Deathly Hallows Part 1 is undecidedly my first or second favorite HP film. What I'm saying is, that feeling that you got after seeing The Two Towers was exactly like how I felt after DH P1. This feeling that the end is so near you can taste it. And that you want more... but you don't. I wonder if in the last film, they'll pull a Peter Jackson and keep fading out... and in again... and out... and in again... I know that they don't want to let go as badly as we don't want to.

It hit me so unbelievably hard when I walked out of that theater. I cried a little during Dobby's death, but when we left the theater, I tried to keep it in but I couldn't. I was like shaking/makeup-down-my-face crying. Must have looked bloody stupid. But I couldn't stop thinking "holy crap there's only one more now! Only ONE!" I do not want it to end. I'm kind of dreading July 15th :(

I realize now that PMS was probably mostly to blame for that over-emotional moment hah :) And how late it was. I was just completely drained by that time.

But the movie! The acting was superb, the accuracy to the book was satisfying, and well... I don't know. It's all kind of a blur. I really should see it again before writing this, but whatever. The dance scene with Nick Cave was a little awkward, but I'm still glad it was in there. That song just works. I feel like the relationship between Harry and Hermione was more prominent than ever. I liked how much the relationships matured in this one; you could really feel Ron and Hermione secretly falling in love with each other, rather than like in the sixth film, where it was a little more immature- Ron kisses another girl and Hermione runs away and cries. Harry and Ginny are still hollow. But I'm sure there will be a good moment between those two in the next film. Sigh... it's not the "next" anymore. It's the last.

Biggest disappointment: WHERE is the big argument scene with Lupin and Harry?! Did I miss it? It seems SO silly that Tonks would bring it up in the beginning during the Seven Potters scene and then they never brought it up again in the whole movie. I'm so disappointed; it's such a fantastic scene in the book that shows so much of both Lupin and Harry's characters.

Biggest surprise: The animated part that you see while Hermione reads The Tale of the Three Brothers. It took me off guard, but the animation looked pretty sweet.

I also feel that the Malfoy Manor scene was very played down. I almost was second-guessing that it was the last scene in the movie because I don't think it was made to be climactic enough. It was true to the book, which was the problem. They should have made it a little more dramatic and a little more war-like to end the film with a bang and set the mood for the upcoming film. And Dobby's death was sad. Sad sad sad. But well-done.

I'll add more to this after I think of more haha. I need to leave now to go watch Imaginarium of Dr. Parnassus with Ryan :) Maybe I'll write a review on that, to get my mind off HP... haha.

So I'll leave with this. Because it describes how I felt after seeing DH so perfectly. I feel like Harry during the Battle of Hogwarts... walking straight to his death. So sad... so sad.



Honest to god... when I look back at my childhood and teenage years, this is what I'll think of.

Four days.

I'm totally ready for Deathly Hallows. I got the shirt from Hot Topic that I wanted: a Gryffindor polo with a tie :) Snatched up the very last one. It's cute! And Ryan's wearing my old Gryffindor scarf. I seem to remember letting Sariah wear that scarf too when we saw Half-Blood Prince.. haha.

Also, "O Children" by Nick Cave... is in Deathly Hallows. WHAT- I DON'T EVEN- Greatest thing my ears have ever heard. It's weird thinking that a song I actually know with lyrics and whatnot will be in a Harry Potter film because they've never done that before. Apparently it's being played while Harry and Hermione dance in the tent or something. I could see it being played on the anarchist radio station they listen to. The lyrics fit so very well.

Here comes Frank and poor old Jim
They're gathering round with all my friends
We're older now, the light is dim
And you are only just beginning

O children

We have the answer to all your fears
It's short, it's simple, it's crystal dear
It's round about, it's somewhere here
Lost amongst our winnings

O children
Lift up your voice, lift up your voice
Children
Rejoice, rejoice

The cleaners have done their job on you
They're hip to it, man, they're in the groove
They've hosed you down, you're good as new
They're lining up to inspect you

O children

Poor old Jim's white as a ghost
He's found the answer that was lost
We're all weeping now, weeping because
There ain't nothing we can do to protect you


brb need to finish the rest of the first half of DH!

I have seen your heart.

Not much blogging lately because I've been so busy with sorting out school stuff. Bleh. It's complicated. Let's just say if I don't get a job soon, I'm going to have a very relaxing three or four months.

So let's just talk about this.



My prediction is that Part 1 will be overwhelmed with this incredible fear, and that Part 2 will just be a sob-fest all over the place. I'm already sad that it's almost over.. :( I just want to say "STOP! This part of my life is NOT over yet."

Who am I kidding, it never will be.